Hate that i Love You

面带微笑离开你怀里 我听天由命
最后一张王牌在手里 二选一的机率
不能放纵爱你 就放过自己
爱情已经过了甜蜜期 多说也是无益
爱不爱我已经没关系 一点小伤而已
你可以很放心 我不会为了留你
假装可怜兮兮 都怪我太不争气
我恨我爱你 oh~我爱你 只是因为你是你
oh~我恨你 你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的… .新恋情
没关系… 我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你 我恨你最后那一句 我爱你

Totally no mood

Tml is new yr eve and i hav totally no mood to celebrate it..its jus realli sux..early knock off from work also nowhr to go...jus now went to tampanies to play bball n sadly i fucking injured my knee..y am i so unlucky??wonder wads goin next..knn..hope some1 can accompany mi tml so i wont feel to terrible

Beta day for me

Todae quite a veri occupied day..morning went to changi dere play soccer wif my cousin fren..i tink i had not play wif them 1yr plus alr and i tink i sux man..no stamina alr n my ball control all jus sux..and my heart hurts again after playing..hias getting weak..when i was changin my soccer boots, i saw 21 lambo pass through e road..it was so shiok la..nv see no many lambo at 1 time before..so many colour n type..shiok shiok..aft finish playin soccer went home to bath thn go ps to mit joanna n HL for lunch n walk walk..who knows both of them flight delay..nid mi to wait 4 them..eat pasta mania for lunch thn walk walk ard at town..i saw 2 puma shoe..n stil deciding wad to buy..mayb aft new yr i thn buy..haha..joanna ps us ard 7 as she got wedding dinner to attend thn mi n HL go cuppage dere eat WAN TON MEE...haha..aft tt went heeren to mit weng hong for coffee..haha..sit dere slack slack chat chat..but halfway mama call mi to go hm so bo bian..weng hong send HL n MI home lor..so tts all for today..

Stupid

Im jus fuckin stupid tt i believe she broke up wif her bf..y am i so stupid and let her hurt mi again n again..y i stil nid to think abt her feeling when she alr done tis to mi?bcoz i stil love her..y cant she get it??She e onli girl i love so much in my life before..

Unlucky time

haha..tis few days i feel that i am rather unlucky..
1)everydae work nid to take shuttle bus frm pasir ris mrt but so sway i step out of mrt bus jus left nvm so went to take sbs bus..who knows bus also jus left so hav to wait 10min plus 4 e bus thn late for work..
2)help dad wash car also wil kena scold..say i wash car nv use heart wash..wash le nv put e soap n pail to e original place..knn i alr try my best alr liao stil kena scold..
3)car side lamp spoilt + esp system all spoilt
4)todae took mrt a lady heels step on my leg..so pain la
5)go vivo walk walk also wil step til spill drinks
6)order hor fan for dinner they giv mi fried rice
7)sick
8)go home club..no ppl n sound sux
9)lonely christmas

haha..but nvm i know luck wil change soon..todae went city hall to mit bizhi for lunch and hongliang n junfa mit us lata..ate BK thn heng on to vivo as bizhi workin dere..junfa ps us becoz he mitin mei mei 4 dinner so left mi n hongliang walk walk at vivo..saw quite a no. of nice tops and puma shoe..aft took train to city hall again coz hongliang wan pass present to fren at new york new york which hl called it NYDC..haha..thn walk to suntec find joanna say hi thn mi n hl go sakae sushi eat..we were so budget that i onli cn eat 5plates..haha..thn joanna knock off send her to bus stop thn i took mrt home..tts it for today!

Lonely Christmas

Well let mi wish everyone a merry christmas..hope everyone enjoy their day todae..for me?i think tis yr is e worst christmas day i ever have..stayin at hm alone watchin tv listening to music..its realli sux..and i dun realli look forward to new yr..i dun lyk the feeling when yur love 1 is outside happily celebrating wif another guy while u cant do anything but to stay at hm..feeling so lonely..well i think its time for mi to 4gt her and move on..no point loving someone who doesnt love me anymore rite? sometimes i also duno y y am i stil hav to afraid of her getting angry when i go out wif other girl while she is happily attached and means nth to mi at all? y am i so stupid??mayb is stil i love her too much and dun wish her to get unhappy.. im jus realli realli very very stupid..well time to move on and 4getting everything..and i hope im can see my real self again tis new yr...beta and stronger me!

I wan to give up

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in Cause I got time while she got freedom Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even) You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain You took your suitcase, I took the blame. Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains Cause you left me with no love, no love to my name. I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in Cause I got time while she got freedom Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven) no it don't break even...

It's Diffcult

One week had passed without her but im stil feeling so terrible..mayb is i love her too much alr?but its all too late..tis few day wad i onli how to do is to take my dad car n go 4 a spin..came hm late everynite..hope to make myself tired so i cn slp..but aft 3hrs i will be wide awake thinkin about her again..it is veri hurting..i also dun feel lyk eatin everyday and i tink i even forgotten how to be hungry..all i do is jus think about her..wad i do i will onli think abt her..i also dun dare to play basketball anymore..i will jus rmb tt she wil b dere sitting n watchin mi play..but it wont happen anymore..and my heart will hurt once i exercise..i duno how long i stil cn tk..im going to collaspe soon..i totally regretted how i treat her last time..i didnt realli express my love towards her correctly but jus show her my temper n scold her..bcoz i realli love her..but now seeing her so happy i think tt she made e right choice and i sld b happy 4 her rather thn b wif mi..unhappy everytime..4 now wad i jus hope is tt i could 4gt her quickly and get on wif my life..i hope i realli cn do it..coz is realli veri hurting n terrible..during tis few day i realli wan to thx those ppl who b dere 4 mi when i nid it and im realli veri touched..they always giv mi support and try to accompany mi if they could.. now i know whenever u r down real frens wil then appear n support u..i made a wrong step by chosing gf rather than frens and i neglect them..i tot once i hav a gf..i could b wif her 4eva and i neglected my fren..now i onli hav a few gd frens..but i nv regretted being wif her..now i jus hope i could 4gt her..n continue my life....its hard but i goanna try..i dun wan to hurt myself more