It's Diffcult

One week had passed without her but im stil feeling so terrible..mayb is i love her too much alr?but its all too late..tis few day wad i onli how to do is to take my dad car n go 4 a spin..came hm late everynite..hope to make myself tired so i cn slp..but aft 3hrs i will be wide awake thinkin about her again..it is veri hurting..i also dun feel lyk eatin everyday and i tink i even forgotten how to be hungry..all i do is jus think about her..wad i do i will onli think abt her..i also dun dare to play basketball anymore..i will jus rmb tt she wil b dere sitting n watchin mi play..but it wont happen anymore..and my heart will hurt once i exercise..i duno how long i stil cn tk..im going to collaspe soon..i totally regretted how i treat her last time..i didnt realli express my love towards her correctly but jus show her my temper n scold her..bcoz i realli love her..but now seeing her so happy i think tt she made e right choice and i sld b happy 4 her rather thn b wif mi..unhappy everytime..4 now wad i jus hope is tt i could 4gt her quickly and get on wif my life..i hope i realli cn do it..coz is realli veri hurting n terrible..during tis few day i realli wan to thx those ppl who b dere 4 mi when i nid it and im realli veri touched..they always giv mi support and try to accompany mi if they could.. now i know whenever u r down real frens wil then appear n support u..i made a wrong step by chosing gf rather than frens and i neglect them..i tot once i hav a gf..i could b wif her 4eva and i neglected my fren..now i onli hav a few gd frens..but i nv regretted being wif her..now i jus hope i could 4gt her..n continue my life....its hard but i goanna try..i dun wan to hurt myself more